Something New

Today I learned how to fold a t-shirt, Japanese samurai style.

Seriously. It's hilarious fun.

Look it up on youtube. You won't be disappointed, but you will be addicted.

I'm waiting on a potential non-legal job...will this be it? I emailed the employer to follow up because I haven't heard from her in a week. Sigh.

It's almost Christmas...my ultimate favourite time of the year.

Navin

...is the name of my virtual assistant....in INDIA.

Isn't that insane? I've discovered this whole new world....and it's fascinating.

I asked him to do some research for me on the tea industry in Canada and in India and how to go about starting an on-line tea business. It cost me a whole $20. And I've got charts, graphs and pages of things to read. I've learned so much over the last month! I want to absorb more info and more knowledge. What hole have I been living in all these years?

The world is my oyster. Now, I just need to decide what that oyster looks like....

We are also looking to move out of our condo....and into a HOUSE. Oh, and did I mention that we're planning for a b-a-b-y soon? Yes, life is hectic and exciting, all at the same time. So many unknowns, so many hopes and dreams.

Lastly, my hubby forgot to do something for me....again. Sigh.

WWW

So.

I've been thinking of starting an on-line business...perhaps selling tea from India? Or I've been exploring the possibility of a dog-walking business in downtown Toronto. The possibilities are endless. I think I just need to take a giant leap of faith and just go for it...What am I afraid of? Failure?

I also started reading a new book, "The 4 Hour Workweek" by Timothy Ferriss. Very inspiring. Hilarious. I'm learning so much right now...Totally recommend it. Now I just need to take all these amazing ideas and do something with it.

Month 4 since I quit my full-time job....

my grammie passed away on Sunday, September 19, 2010 @ 5am.

My mom and I were at her bedside when she passed away peacefully in her sleep.
I miss her dearly.

For 2 weeks my job hunting was put on the backburner while I concentrated on loving my grammie....Here is my eulogy:

Hi everyone. I had a very hard time putting my gramma’s eulogy together. No matter how hard I try, I can never do justice to who she was and what she accomplished in her lifetime. I know we are all grieving today for we all lost a great woman of God. But I have no doubt in my mind that she is walking the golden streets of heaven right now with Jesus by her side. Even though I wasn’t her favourite grandchild (my brother was, hands down), I shared a lot of wonderful memories with her. My grandma was an integral part of my life. My grandfather passed away when my mom was 4. And after raising my mom and my uncle all by herself, my gramma came to Canada when my brother was born. And for the last 27 years, she has lived with my parents and my brother and I. While both my parents worked very hard, she was our babysitter, our comforter and our best friend. My gramma loved to the watch wrestling, so much so that when we were younger and it was just the 3 of us in front of the tv, we would have a vote as to what to watch, I would lose, because both my gramma and my brother would want to watch WWF. My gramma was the best cook in the entire world, she nursed me through chicken pox, she knit me sweaters and scarves galore and she spent most of her life loving us in every way possible. She was also the one to tell me when my other grandmother passed away a few years ago and let me cry myself to sleep in her arms. And even in the hospital last week, she never once complained but would tell us to go home and not worry about her, to use pillows and she asked us constantly whether we ate. Even during the last few days of her life on earth she thought of us before herself. My gramma was a very strong and stubborn woman. I think both my mother and I are very much like her in this way. But I can only hope that the next generations of women in our family are as strong as she was. She also was a woman of prayer and has likely prayed for every major and minor event and decision in my life. She was definitely the solid rock in our family. And although our lives will never be the same without her, we will always remember what a kind, wise and beautiful woman of faith she was.

So thank you so much for coming today to help honour my grandmother. I’m sure that she would not have wanted this day to be filled with sadness and tears but with rejoicing. For today we are celebrating her grand entrance through the gates of heaven. Thank you.

Reality

I just got back from India.

What an incredible country. Stunning - the only word to describe it.

The world is so much bigger than I thought. I feel like my heart has widened, my mind expanded. For the last few months I have been very selfish. Always thinking about what "I" want to do with my life. Worrying, stressing, getting slightly depressed. I feel like God has exposed me for who I really am inside. A self-absorbed privileged little girl. What a breath of fresh air.

O___o

its been over a month now since i left my thankless job.

so, this is what freedom tastes like....very nice.

in a matter of 30 days i think i've half convinced myself that i want to be:

1. a cupcake/tea shop owner;
2. a canadian diplomat;
3. a housewife;
4. a government employee with a sweet pension;
5. a lawyer (sigh);
6. a children's book writer; or
7. a legal writer.

or maybe a combo of all of the above?

i think i may be going crazy.....

Reverie

Hi. So. I just quit my job. Toxic environment and everything about it was wrong. Happily packed up my office and walked out the door the next day. I've been sleeping and eating well ever since. Lately, I've been feeling a mixture of hope and hopelessness. And my head feels like it's going to explode with ideas. There are so many things I want to do....What are you doing with your life? Just wondering...